I keep having the same dream
I’m racing through lives, and then another
But you’re here with me
We see each other
And the hardships
And the plot twists
And the problems
And the struggles
But the battles
And the scars left
Seem to drown out
And we’re left with you
And we’re left with me
And we’re holding hands
Not quite sure where this is going to take us
But I know you’ll be where you stand now, then
We’ll touch unto this together sometime again.
The twists and turns make my stomach churn
With excitement and with disgust
But life’s surprises in strange disguises
Makes for faith and a lot of trust
It’s gotten me this far
And I can’t quite frown
Because every corner and in every shadow
Some light seems to shine down
I blindsided you, because perhaps I was the first
of my kind
And then you were mine, and you were so fine
I’d rather no other by my side
It’s been so short, but we’ve fought so long
The wars of blood and anger
But we’ve seized our enemies and made allies
For this kingdom we’re bound to conquer
We’re wired, and yet so very tired
But we must keep to rebuild
The hope and happiness of our strength and love
Will kindle our greatest desires
So through the twists and turns
We’ll scatter the urns of our once-was enemies
Say a prayer, and heave them over
To the vast and gentle seas
I wish I could expand narrow minds and bring some faith to the faithless.
Perhaps you’re dead in the eyes and in the mind, but you will never be dead in the heart. But even I seemingly can’t reach you. Your own blood.
I’d have pursued it long ago
This road’s gravel is rough on toes, you know?
How do I keep things as simple as possible?
It’s not right. It’s not plausible.
The flow is broken when dam overflows
The boundaries of waters are the first to go
The forces expand them, until there’s no land left
With waters so loud, they’ll leave you deaf
Where do I go, where do I swim?
Just flow down until you hit the rim
You’ll fall off the Earth for a minute
And catch new ground and set new limits
And if there was an easier way
I wouldn’t have had this conversation today
And if I could just let it be
I would still curse at curiosity.
The stones cover too much ground.
If only gravity allowed the sands of time to travel upwards, towards the sky… Perhaps there would be a larger vacancy in Hell.
Sitting alone in my head used to be the worst feeling
Because I’d think and think and think
But now with my mind a little settled and mending
The emotions have mellowed
Perhaps jumping into something when I wasn’t ready
Was, in fact, a dark idea
So perhaps the only relationship I should upkeep
Is the one of my hand and pencil
And even if the stars fall,
I’m standing in the fire
Even if the skies burn of black smoke
And the air I take in suffocates
The living things around me
If it takes until then for you to realize,
Then so be it,
The green monster.
I’ll give you a list of all my flaws
Both you and I know them if you take the time to know me
And perhaps the right man will come along
And love me for me
I’m a difficult person to deal with
As I have a lot of complaints
Perhaps my bodily build is a little more masculine
As my shoulders are broader than an average gal
I don’t have mountains on my chest
Nor do I want them, as they look best on the ones who have them
My fingers and toes are longer than average
My parents said I would make an outstanding pianist
However, my love for piano was shortlived
And my personality is certainly a lot tougher than most
In my outer shell
My person within is caring and sensitive
But only towards people that I let in
I’m lazy most of the time
But things that I feel must get done
Will get done
Through some motivation
As often times, I lack such
My appreciation is towards everyone who’s given two damns about me
or my family
The daily grind scares me a little
But I know it’s not all that bad
But I know I do not wish to live like such forever
I can be cynical if you push my buttons
And I will most definitely bite back
However, it is unlike me to harm someone out of mal intentions
Just for self defense
I don’t like to hear the truth sometimes
Because I live in my own world
Reality can be depressing sometimes
So I like to let be
Alone in my world from time to time
So let me tell you,
If you can’t accept the fact that I’m
the way I am
Then don’t decide to date me to try to change me
Or to push what you wish I was
Or wish I had on me
Because as said in the beginning
It was never my loss.
If we never talk, then maybe we’ll never understand each other
And I know it’s hard to explain sometimes
The way that we are
The things that we do
And the countless reasons have come up
As to why I don’t understand you
We speak different languages
And perhaps we’ll never learn each other’s
But communication is key, honey
I’m not my dear mother
Speak to me
Talk to me
Hold my hand through it
Because if you never spoke it
Then I would never hear
And the words that you vomit out
Would never enter my ears
You’ll never completely understand who I am
Most people never do
And it’s not a cocky statement, hon
You’ve just never walked in my shoes
And I’ll never understand you either
And I don’t think I’d ever want to
But things that lead to potential problems
I’d really like to solve em’.
If you can feel the beat of my heart, you’d tell me that it was inhuman. Hearts that don’t beat are categorized as deceased.
But who are you to judge whether my heart does beat on a regular basis or not? Because, as a matter of fact, my heart does beat. My heart beats once every few years.
You may not have the patience to see that neon, green light raise and lower with my pulse, and have long thrown me into the morgue.
But if you just listen.
If you just feel.
If you just close your eyes,
You’ll sense movement.
You’ll sense that there is living in the ‘dead’.
And you’ll sense that, although the universe forbid we have souls, we do indeed.
And if you take the time and the effort to understand us,
The depths, the struggles, the meanings,
And you will not mourn for us.
You will walk with us, amongst us,
Because, my dear, we are one of the same.